July 23, 2013
My personal Survival Anniversary – Ten Years July 23, 2003-2013 Surviving the Big “A” neurysm
I share with you an event in my life which has made a huge impact not
only on my life but the life of my family and closest friends, and all who have
met me after July 23, 2003. The life
altering experience is very dear to me.
I was given a gift which cannot be described by mere words. I feel compelled to express my deepest fears
and my happiest moments. My rebirth has
inspired me to accomplish and I want to offer you inspiration as well. Remember these 3 words, cope, alter and
conquer!
Ten years ago today, I experienced a painful ruptured brain aneurysm
which the only way I can explain the pain, is death. My head, eyes and neck hurt beyond belief and
I felt dying would be the only way to escape the awful excruciating pain. My husband and family saved me, literally
saved me. I collapsed and my husband
gave me mouth to mouth and because of his quick thinking he saved me and saved
me whole.
I would like to take this time right here and now and say a warm hello
and thank you to my family and my dearest friends! I could not be who I am without you. Thank you for your love support and prayers,
you helped save me!
I survived the rupture, the brain surgery and I lay in the ICU at
Methodist Hospital for 21 days. No
memory loss no paralysis, WOW, I was alive!
Well this awful episode in my life made me think a lot during those long
days in ICU. I had experienced another
episode while in ICU, and I just could not stop thinking, why me? Why did I survive? Obviously the pain and suffering did not take
my life. It was not written in the stars
that I would pass to the next journey leaving this earth suffering the Big “A”. So why did this happen to me?
I felt gifted, believe that or not, but yes gifted, that I lived through
something I never thought I could ever survive.
For years the thought of having brain surgery scared me into shaking
fear. And I did it! I started to think what am I going to
do? Every day of my life from that day
July 23, 2003, I was thankful every morning and every night that I was able to
live another day.
I started making a plan while in ICU; I was going to plan to do things
I never thought I could do. I guess this
is what you would call a bucket list, although I never thought of my plan to
accomplish a bucket list, I define my plan as a way to cope, alter and conquer!
I had always wanted to have gone to college and acquire a bachelor’s
degree. I had regretted for years after
I graduated from high school that I never took the time to go to college. As time went on not having a degree bothered
me. Especially when I witnessed so many
at where I work accomplish higher levels of professionalism due to his or her
degrees.
University of Phoenix would be the choice that I would take in order to
acquire my degree. I had my aneurysm
when I was 47 years old and started University of Phoenix one year later. I chose the University of Phoenix because if
I stayed full time in school, I could complete in 4 years, and I would still be
able to work full time. I could not give
up working full time and I favored the idea of working and completing the
degree in 4 years. In all, it took me 4
½ years to complete.
My second dream was to write a cookbook and combine my life experience
of survival and the wonders of cooking into a cookbook. I accomplished this in September 2011. My cookbook did not make the best sellers
list, but my heart and soul is in that book.
I would like to recreate my cookbook with additional recipes and
displayed pictures.
My degree has helped in order for me to acquire a promotion. May 16, 2013, I was given a wonderful
opportunity to have been offered from an Executive Assistant to an
Administrative Manager. I am thankful
again.
Yes I have learned to cope, alter and conquer.
Do I still get scared of having another Big A? Of course, any experience that we go through
which is painful scares a person to their heart and soul that this pain could
come back.
Am I afraid of dying? YES! I love life and I love what life has to
offer. I am not ready to not wake up
each morning knowing my family and friends are here and I will never see them
again.
As time goes on, the pain is further and further away from my direct
contact of day to day life, but the near death is with me each day. Every day of my life I think about and
remember July 23, 2003.
Do I feel discomfort from the surgery?
Yes my head is still sore in areas.
I cannot fathom the thought of someone rubbing their hands on my head,
especially when I get my hair cut.
Do I have a scar from my surgery? The scar is not visible until I pull
my hair back. I can see the unevenness
of the plates and screws in my head, but I am proud to have them, they define
my battle, a battle I won!
Do I still get headaches? Not
often, I rarely take Tylenol for a headache.
I usually take Tylenol when I have the flu which the Tylenol helps with
the aches and pain of the fever. Before
my aneurysm I suffered with a headache every day of my life. I had no idea
there was a monster possibly growing in my head.
Do I sound perfect? I hope
not! I am human and I make a lot of
mistakes and there are times I get wrapped up in the worry of life and I have
to stop and say to myself, girl you have survived you can get through anything
in life. Remember, life’s stresses can
always be worse.
Remember; try very hard to never give up. However life is giving you lemons you can
take those lemons and make the best lemon pound cake ever! Never give up! Make a plan to cope alter and conquer. Plan to accomplish what you never thought you
could do! Set your goal, research what
your plan will take and surround yourself with family and friends who support
you. You can do it! And do not be surprised that once you make
your plan, you may take a few steps back before going forward, some things just
do not work out, but never give up!
NEVER!